You can't always see what it is you're doing until it's too late.
It's like you can be living but you're not aware of yourself.
However when the realization hits you, it's not subtle, it's a full force awakening.
No skirting around issues or lying to yourself anymore, you're exposed.
This Is You, in your most vulnerable state.
All shields, walls, barriers even the ones put up to hide from yourself crumble.
And once the debris settles you can see right into the soul being of who you are.
Analyze every quality and flaw.
But then once you've seen the truth, who you are, and you don't like what you've seen.
If you look deep into not just how you react and behave but who you are and you're shocked at what you see.
Can you change it?
Change the deep down innate being, the core essence of you.
Is there any possibility to build something new?
I don't want to be me, it's the most honest statement I've ever made.
Who I am, deep down, not the mask that everyone else sees, the person I